Shattered

June 25, 2013

Shattered

My reflection on the floor

Tip toeing around glass

My feet feel the sharp pain

Blades coming from every direction

I have no where to hide

My reflection isn't my reflection

My brain has turned to goo

I ramble and regret the words

Nothing makes sense

No one seems to be fine

Everyone is hurting

She howls and it breaks my heart

He isn't here to help her

It's hard to look at the big picture

People lie and say they're fine

No one can show emotion

I'm living in fear

I'm walking on glass

My heart has fallen and shattered

I try to be positive

I try to be fine

I am trying to be a better me

Yet the fog comes creepin' in

I say what I feel and I'm not understood

No, not even by me

I don't know where to go

Who to talk with or who to see

I want to crawl under my blankets and stay there until this nightmare is over

Try to concentrate

Focus on reality but that's just it

My reality is what is scaring me most

I fall

I brake down

I throw what is not mine to be shattered across the room

Can this week be over?

When will my tears dry?

Being homesick is better than this

Stable is hard to be when you have to be it alone

Crying out only wears one out

I do it anyway

Shaking, staring blankly into outer space

This veil needs to be lifted from my eyes

I want to see the good again

I want to focus on His plan

I don't want to be shattered

Remove this glass

Show me your reflection

Put on the coat of Him who sent me

Pick me up

Dust me off

Show me the Son

Fill me with strength

Let only my mouth speak what needs to be spoken

Silence judgment, fear, and all my worries

Dodge the knives

Send me

Guide my hands to pick up what is broken

Shatter not.