Permanent Tattoos

May 1, 2014

She was tattooed in tears

Branded in pain

She didn't ask to be different

She stood apart

Hating the loneliness

Her cross she bore without a Simon

Comforted though may be

And loved by many

She was still only a number

A dog tag around her frail neck

She felt the needle again

Permanent water stains on her cheeks

Her skin now dry

A heart broken and shattered

Not by one but many

She lives another day

She wishes for tomorrow

Tomorrow comes

Her future is unknown

It is unwanted

Trembling is her breath

Exhausted is her body

Misunderstood is all she feels

She sees perfection around her

She feels the brokenness inside

Exposed

Diseased

Helpless

A patient in waiting

The clock ticks slow

The race is not worth running

The prescription she hates taking

An obedient animal

A weak lamb

Led to live a life of suffering

Why?

A tiny sliver

The size of a mountain

Cheered on

Alone

Scared

Crying

Wailing

Why?

Continued prayers

Hopes and dreams

One miracle

She stays curled up

She fakes the agony

Her smile camouflages a frown

Her laugh trumps the scream she can't scream

Drowning

Her skin soaked

Tears kissing her face

Betrayed

Sensitive to the sounds

Stupidity flows from their lips

Turns away

Only to breathe

She can't

Oxygen thirsty

Again she cries

Can He hear?

It is His plan

Yes

But why?

Why her?

The sorrow

The frustration

The optimistic minded

Leave but a lump in her throat

Eyes say a thousand words

Her eyes remain speechless though

Looking at the ground

Wandering far but not far enough

Wondering what sparkle they could give

Wishing they were not shy

Only tears company them

Is it done?

Is it over?

She looks forward to the last page of the book

However she cannot read fast enough

Tomorrow they'll forget

She'll live

She can triumph through

Yet those tears will come back

They'll come back stinging

She will be covered in invisible and skin breaking tattoos