Take this Heart

Friday, July 7, 2023

Here is a piece of my heart I want to share with all of you.

I wrote this Litany "Take this Heart" a year ago when I was battling deep depression.

I wrote this "through tears" in Adoration on First Friday, May 6th, 2022.

I shared it with Sister Jordan on her home visit last year.

I knew I wanted to share this Litany and Sister Jordan offered to help make that happen.

I want to give credit and thanks to Erin McAtee for sharing her artwork with me.

Mary's heart was the first painting I was drawn to after writing this prayer for hope.

The sword marks resemble my own heart.

“And Mary kept all these things, reflecting on them in her heart”

“…you yourself a sword will pierce, so that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed”

Today in First Friday Adoration I reread my journal from last year.

I had a pretty scary doctor appointment last year which I had already blogged about.

It was the emotions I was feeling after the appointment that led me down a spiral stair case of despair.

The emotions of fear, sorrow, and hopelessness came over me.

The reality of my brokenness became real again.

I pictured myself dying in a hospital bed.

The feeling of being done.

The tears came from a heart that was tired and could do no more.

These appointments are reminders of what I cannot do.

I visualized a glass wall in front of me and Jesus on the crucifix above the altar was on the other side of the glass. I could see and know the love of Jesus but my heart could not feel the love because of that "stupid" wall there. If I opened the door the glass would shatter.

Remove the glass wall.

Give Jesus your heart.

I am sharing this one year later with love and peace in my heart.

Take this Heart.